The Teacher

I’m back. And it feels so good. I have missed my desk and computer. Sort of. What I have missed more than anything is the feeling of connection I had with all of you, and, to be honest, the feeling of connection I had with God when I share my thoughts in these blogs. Summer brought a different kind of connection though, which I have slowly grown to appreciate just as much. An example of such connection is in the picture above. I had breakfast on the back patio with this strapping young fellow this morning. And it wasn’t the first time. I have learned to recognize God’s presence and sense of humor in a much different way. Often, this summer when I would be sitting outside in supposed solitude, my gaze mindlessly traversing the woods, I would be startled back into reality as a pair of beady black eyes and a pointy black knob of a nose were staring back at me from a bed of leaves just feet from the patio.  Once the momentary shock settled, I would just laugh. Laugh at the beauty and the gift that the moment held as this deer and I shared a bond of being one of God’s creations. That is just one of the lessons I have learned this summer. Fall is right around the corner. We know that because the school buses are on the road, the pools are closing, and the Christmas decorations are showing up in the stores. My grandkids are starting school this week and with that comes the excitement of seeing friends again, getting a new classroom, and a new teacher. They don’t always realize it, but there is also the joy of learning something new every day. The limitlessness of learning. And what a transforming effect that knowledge can have for a lifetime, on those who seek it. I like to think of myself like one of my grandkids, starting a new school year. I’m excited to gather with friends again more often. I’ll have a new classroom, less birds and deer and flowers, and more reading and writing and conversation. I do realize the joy of learning something new each day and the limitlessness of learning. I understand and have experienced the transforming effect that this gathering of knowledge can have for a lifetime when I let myself be open to it. This new school year for me...

Strangely Inspired

Yes, I am still alive. Have you missed the weekly blogs? I know I have. I think the Holy Spirit is giving me a break from any inspirations that would cause me to start typing. Instead, I have been inspired to do some very different things. I have been inspired to take naps in the screened in porch. I sit down with my laptop after lunch to write, and before I know it, the cool gentle breeze, the bird songs, and my full belly lull me to sleep. I have been inspired to rise earlier and commune with the resident deer that meets me each morning around 6:45 in the woods off our patio. We have a daily contest to see who shows up first. I’m losing. I was inspired to set up a hummingbird feeder, and sure enough, I have a hummingbird who visits regularly now. This morning he was humming “Amazing Grace.” Just kidding. I was inspired to buy a bird bath, and wow, I never realized how important personal hygiene was to our feathered friends. There is someone in there constantly, splashing around. The robin in the picture above made me laugh so hard. After creating a tsunami in the bird bath, he climbed out and just stood there with his feathers going every which way. It reminded me of myself in the morning when I’ve slept on wet hair. I guess I shouldn’t laugh. I was inspired to stop weeding and just watch as four baby squirrels took what looked like their maiden voyage from the nest to the playground of tree branches all around them. Still fine tuning their acrobatic moves but trying to keep up the chase, a couple of them fell out of the trees. I would hear this thud and see one of them scampering back up the tree to join its band of maniacal siblings. Then another thud and another quick recovery and off it went. I’ve never seen that before. Is that nature’s way or is this just a particularly squirrely brood? (Pardon the pun.) I was inspired to lay down a picnic blanket and sit in the front yard with our 13-month-old granddaughter, June, and throw fists full of grass in the air and squeal as it tumbled down on our faces. Over and over and over and over again. It never got old. I’m really enjoying these inspirations. They are subtle, varied, and delightful. Just what...

Too Much Holy Spirit

Today, I am suffering from Holy Spirit hangover. Yesterday was Pentecost Sunday and I guess I overdid it. I dressed in red, which I rarely do. I subscribe to a more practical fashion color spectrum. I have lots of black, grey, blue, and an occasional coral when I get flashy. Red is a little exhausting for me. But the choir was encouraged to wear red for mass yesterday so I obliged. As you recall from a couple blogs ago, we have been rehearsing the song, Surely the Presence, in choir to sing on Pentecost Sunday. Well, we sang it to an almost full church yesterday, which included my two sisters. I could barely get through it without crying every time we practiced, so I prayed that I wouldn’t get choked up for the real thing. The prayers worked, I didn’t cry, but instead my heart was pounding so hard I was convinced that surely the presence of the Lord was in this place and surely the presence of a paramedic would soon be in this place. I don’t know, there is something about that song that reminds me, in such a powerful way, that the Lord is present.  For me, the Holy Spirit is the proof of that presence. Of the three members of the Trinity, I feel bad for the Holy Spirit because it always seems to be in an identity crisis. We seem to have the need to define it. Is it a dove, a tongue of fire, or wind? It seems so absurd that we just give up and go our merry way. What a powerful relationship we forfeit. The identity of the Holy Spirit is not in its definition, it’s in its doings. We come to know the power that lies within each of us when we recognize the workings of the Holy Spirit and allow ourselves to believe it. Our faith informs us about the Holy Spirit. Pentecost Sunday, the church focuses on when the Holy Spirit descended upon the apostles in the Upper Room and as a result they were transformed from frightened followers to fearless witnesses. Scripture describes the Holy Spirit as the breath of God, present at the birth of creation and again at the birth of the church. And many times, in between. It helps me to learn through practical examples. I once heard that the Holy Spirit is like the electricity that flows through a cord that lights...

An Endless Love

When you read this blog, we will have had the last event of the 2022-23 Firstfruits season. We are gathering moms of young children for a special edition of our popular Well Time series. We are hoping to give these moms a time to focus just on themselves. A place to gather with each other and experience God’s love for them. That’s what we’re all longing for whether we know it or not. God’s love comes in such fun and varied ways. The tricky part is being open to it and not being doubtful or afraid to admit it when it comes your way. As I look back over this last year, I want to share with you some of the fun and varied ways God has shown his love in and through Firstfruits. A deepened prayer life in a very unexpected way Who would have thought prayer could be so powerful through a computer screen? God’s love can’t be stifled by COVID or anything else. I haven’t experienced prayer as deeply as I have during our Abiding Prayer sessions on zoom. Fun conversation over delicious lunches So many smiles and so much laughter at those high-top tables in the Kiwi Café as we nosh on the fan-favorite Kiwi Salad and homemade soups or chicken salad. And don’t get me started on the desserts! The wonder and simplicity of Well Time We have been gathering at the “Well” for four years now. In person, then to Zoom when COVID hit. We have spun off to a Well Time that takes place after an exercise class at a local parish and three other traveling Well Time’s to local parishes for Lenten sessions. One group didn’t want to stop after the first six weeks so they are continuing. We have women from Illinois, Minnesota, and Michigan coming to the well with us via Zoom. What’s happening at the “Well” you ask? Nothing fancy, just what we women were wired by God for: conversation, affirmation, a sense of belonging, and uncomplicated love. Stop by sometime. A creative and fun Advent season Reinvent Advent series brought the artist out in each of us. Well, that’s a bit of an exaggeration. It brought the artist out in some of us and the anti-artist out in others. You know who you are ;) So much fun regardless of the outcome! Expressions of love through God’s word God affirmed His love for us through the...

It’s Mother’s Day

Whether you are a mother of a biological child, adopted child, a classroom of children, or a treasured niece or nephew, caring about and loving another life to the degree that our motherhood genes take us is nothing short of miraculous and cause for great celebration. Or at least recognition. My Mother’s Days over the years have been a mixed bag of emotions. I’ve always been deeply grateful for the gift of being a mother. It’s just that for those years with little ones that gratitude got trampled on by the reality of everyday life and the lack of recognition for the sacrifices that mothers make. My friend Sally and I made a tradition when our oldest sons were four and five years old to take a walk on Mother’s Day. It was our way of doing something for ourselves away from the fray and it gave us an opportunity to reflect to each other that same care and love we daily reflected to our children. It was a time and a place to let each other know what good moms we were.  We still do that to this day. She is out of the country this Mother’s Day but texted before she left. Now that I’m a mom of adult children, Mother’s Day is filled with that same deep gratitude but it isn’t trampled on anymore, it is bedazzled with the love and the deep pride I have for my children. They now reflect back to me the care and love that was my life’s purpose. I see motherhood in all its splendor and sacrifice, up close and personal in the lives of my two daughters and daughter-in-law. The challenges they face seem so much harder than just a generation ago. The way they handle them with such perseverance, patience, and grace (Even though they don’t always think so) is awe inspiring. I see the real presence of God in their strength and their unconditional love. Speaking of the real presence of God, this Mother’s Day is extra special. Our granddaughter Harper is making her First Communion. My daughter, her mom, has had the added tasks of a First Communion to deal with. The dress, the shoes, the socks, the veil, the party, and the cake. You know the drill. Just when she thought she had it all in check, Harper asked her, “Mom, how are we going to make this party different than all...

My List

For the past two weeks I have had blogger’s block. No amount of fiber in my diet can cure this blockage. It’s happened before so I have learned to not force things. When I try to force a blog, the Holy Spirit goes quiet. Kind of like my husband when I tell him it’s his turn to make dinner. The problem isn’t that I don’t have anything I want to write about. It’s quite the opposite. My head is spinning with thoughts but they aren’t pretty. I don’t like writing about sad and depressing things. I have decided to start reading the Bible from the beginning, just a page or two at a time. I’m currently at the story of Noah and the flood. It says in Genesis 6:5, "When the Lord saw how great was man’s wickedness on earth, and how no desire that his heart conceived was ever anything but evil, he regretted that he had made man on the earth and his heart was grieved." This very sobering description of humanity is what a lot of my thought are about lately. The world seems to be going mad. The other reason that it has been hard to put my thoughts into words is that they are so random. So, I have decided to share them with you in a list. My daughter gave me a journal-like book a few years ago called Listography- Your Life in Lists. It asks you things like list your proudest accomplishments, your favorite toys as a child, your crushes and the people you love the most. I found it to be a fun and easy way to take an inventory of myself. The question I came across last night was, “What would you change about the world?” That was the Metamucil for my blogger’s block. The Holy Spirit started speaking. So here is my list of a few of the things I would like to change about the world: Discrimination and racial inequity For a couple years now, at Firstfruits we have been focusing on trying to become more diverse. I have been blessed by the presence of two women of color on our board and in my life. Our conversations have taught me this isn’t an issue that will be resolved anytime soon. Its roots are too deep. But with the help of education and a LOT of prayer we can take baby steps that eventually can...

Healing Hope

Mother Nature seems to be going rogue these days. She’s off script. Last week it was warmer in Wisconsin than it was in Florida. Temperatures have been in the eighties one day and the forties the next. A couple weeks ago I stepped outside at 7am, rake in hand, to rescue our fragile evergreen trees from the snow that was bending their branches to the ground. It was a winter wonderland. Only to find myself outside again a few hours later without any trace of snow around. For a second, I wondered if I had been dreaming. I did love those unseasonably warm days last week though. It gave me the opportunity to start preparing the garden beds around our house. This year it’s particularly exciting, because it’s the first Spring in a new house, so I have no idea what all is going to pop up. It never ceases to amaze me when those tiny specs of green start peeking out from the dry, hard ground this time of year. Ground that has been beaten down by months of harsh conditions. Yet, it still finds a way to open to the new life that can’t contain itself. And because it is open to this new life, the garden grows, transforms the look of the yard, and brings great beauty to the world. In the month of April reflection in Joyce Rupp’s book, May I Have This Dance, she compares the human spirit to a spring garden. She says, “If growth is to happen, it too (the human spirit) must be made ready. The human spirit must be opened up if God’s goodness is to grow there. Open minds and hearts are ready to receive the abundant life God constantly offers.” How often our minds and hearts become like the beaten down soil. Hardened and closed off as a result of life’s challenges.  Repeated seasons of unmet needs, unanswered prayer, and discouragement can weather us. Before we know it, we aren’t who we want to be at all. We close ourselves off to the goodness of God within us and in others. We suffer because of it, not to mention the people around us. No matter how significant our hurts have been, there is always hope. There is hope that situations will change, people will change, we will change. We need to pray for openness to the healing hope of newness. Ask God to heal...

Alleluia!

Now on the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene came to the tomb early, while it was still dark, and saw that the stone had been taken away from the tomb. John 20:1 Thanks to the Resurrection, we need not run to the tomb like the Magdalene in anxious hope of finding him, or in fear that someone may have stolen him from us. He promised us that he would be with us always. That is why Easter joy is peaceful. For Jesus is now present, no longer just in Galilee or on Golgotha, but in all things.  (Excerpt from I Thirst by Fr. Joseph Langford) Alleluia!! Wishing you and those you love an abundance of Easter joy, Joan...

The Dumbfounded Outlet

People often ask me how I come up with the topics for my blogs. I don’t “come up with them;” they seem to come up to me. Like the topic of last week’s blog and this week’s blog. When this happens, I know it and I know I need to go with it. So, if this week’s blog makes you shake your head, I apologize. Remember, I’m just the messenger. I was sitting on the couch the other day when I glanced down and saw what I have identified as an electrical outlet for all of my life. Two receptacles that provide power. (See the picture above.) But for some reason, this time, when my gaze landed on this common household object, I saw something new: two small, dumbfounded faces looking back at me. Do you see them? My initial reaction was one of surprise, then laughter. As the smile crept across my face, I thought to myself, “There’s my blog.” This newfound outlet awareness had me pondering: How could I not have seen it like this before? All my life this has eluded me. What else is right in front of me but I don’t see it, I wondered. Why did I see it then? Do other people see this? These are some of the same questions I have asked myself when confronted with a new awareness in my spiritual life. A spiritual truth that I have recently been made aware of that has me asking these same questions was uncovered in our study of the book, I Thirst, by Fr. Joseph Langford at Firstfruits. If you have been reading my blogs this Lent, you have read many quotes from his book. The astounding truth that I saw completely different than I had all of my life was the truth that God thirsts for you and for me. God yearns for us. I’ve always believed that God loves us, but somehow this truth that He yearns for us surprised me into a new way of seeing our relationship with God. Jesus proclaims that thirst of the Father for us on the cross when He says, “I Thirst.” The very act of dying on the cross was to point to the profound yearning of the Father to be with us for all eternity. Jesus’s death made that possible. There is a truth to really ponder as we come into the final stretch of our Lenten journey. With this newfound...

The Cross Plant

As my parents were aging, I remember my mom encouraging me when I would go home to visit to put my name on anything I wanted that was in the house. I thought it was kind of morbid and really didn’t see the point which is why my siblings ended up with the good stuff and I ended up with the luau decorations. (See my blog) I better understand my mom’s request now. I will probably do the same with our kids. It is interesting to me, just what things the kids would even want. There is one possession of mine that I am really interested in knowing where or with whom it is going to end up. My Dead-Jesus-on-the-Cross plant. (See picture above.) I’m sure there will be a real bidding war between my children for it. I can just see it now. Fifteen years ago, I found this odd but beautiful rotting piece of nature while on a walk. It was a sunny fall day when I was struck by the Divine in an otherwise very ordinary day when I looked down and there was this dried-up plant on the side of the road. I immediately saw an image in this old plant that I was very familiar with, the image of Christ on the cross. If you look closely at the pictures in the frames you will see what looks like a crown of thorns around what I saw as a head. The side branches almost look like arms and the large clumps of dried leaves on either side of the main branch reminded me of the weight of our sins, ugly and heavy, that Jesus took with him on the cross. I carried this somewhat odd artifact with me often and looked forward to any opportunity I had to share it with others.  I was transporting it in a DSW shoe store bag when one of my friends in a Bible study I was attending begged me to let her husband make me a more solid, permanent home for my find. Thus, as you see, my Jesus Plant is now safe and sound, encased and on display at Firstfruits. During Lent we are prompted to ponder the mystery of the cross. Ponder the connection between the suffering of Jesus on the cross and our own suffering with the crosses we bear. And we all bear crosses. We can’t escape them. In his...